In about 2008 I was approached on a certain FinDom community site by a sub called ‘softtouch’ And during his first contact with Me on the site he started purchasing gifts from My amazon wishlist..from what I can remember it was software that I wanted and shoes!…and other gifts…he was besotted!
Over an amount of time I gave him the pet name ‘kitty’…she was My kitty sissy gurl and she was proving herself to be a worthy sub so then I eventually gave kitty a contract telling her EXACTLY how I expected to be worshipped and the dos and don’ts….and of course a buy out fee etc.
The sissy tart carried on serving Me non stop for about 18 months…during this time I exposed her more sissy ways by making her perform humiliating tasks such as cum eating, wearing ridiculous slutty clothes, bj practising, orgasm denial, being under My chastity (after all she was a gurl now and didn’t need her stupid dumb stick), generally being My pet and doing anything I asked of her, she always looked forward to pay day and spent a fortune on Me buying Me anything I wanted, clothes, shoes, latex, make up…she was becoming the ideal Financial submissive.
she was always loyal and ‘mostly’ obedient. Of course there were times where she would be flippant etc and so would suffer the ‘punishments’ I would dish out… but between you and I, I think she quite liked it .
W/we would chat to each other almost everyday…W/we often met up in London for real time wallet rapes which W/we both found very good fun…she is the biggest most clumsiest fool ever that with any sight of Me she would be dropping cutlery and tripping up etc!
I turned this slutty sub into My perfect sub, where My fetishes became hers and her number one fetish was Me and My needs.
But of course with all My teachings and making her go to the gym and eat healthily kitty soon started to feel much more confident about herself and low and behold she found herself a girlfriend…I knew what was coming next…so I waited, and one day she said it ‘Goddess, I’m very sorry but I’m going to have to stop serving You’…so I wished her well and sent her on her merry way all love up with her new girlfriend.
Well you’re never going to guess what happened next??? Go on…have a guess?
Well it didn’t work out for her and her girlfriend…so guess who came crawling back tail between her legs?…the name ‘kitty’ was rather fitting!
So without really being too hesitant I said yes…so she was rather happy etc…I changed her name to princess fifi as by this stage she was rather like a diva sub…but tbh she looks better than lots of females when she’s dressed up….she looks quite like Vanessa Feltz (pmsl!).
So by now I was ready to initiate a further step in princess fifi’s training…well if she wanted to look like a whore…she may as well act like one and make some cash for Me whilst sucking cock…this was all a bit too much for the huge fucking wimp!
So I then made her take baby steps and sign up to TVChix, I would log in and read her mail and ‘help’ her chat to other guys! Hahaha this was so much fun…the teasing was hilarious…however she was non to amused *smirks*
So literally a few weeks after she started serving Me again I told her that My Real Man was moving in with Me…and her reaction was that of a jealous little bitch (DIVA!)…she was not best pleased…but she had NOTHING to be jealous of…she knew that My Real Man came waaaaay before she did (she’s bottom of the food chain of course!) and that My happiness is the most important thing ever and all that she is here for is to make My life much more enjoyable…BUT she decided she has had enough of serving Me…again…BORING zzzzzzz
By now I was totally over the whole fucking situation and decided to block her on Twitter and on Y!…there was NO way she was EVER going to do that to Me again…I already was being far too kind taking her back once as I never allow for second chances!
Sooooooo about 2 ½ months ago guess who popped up on My IM? (yeah I know, its getting rather tedious and predictable now isn’t it?) saying how she wants to serve Me and there is no other Goddess quite like Me yadda, yadda, yadda! Well following all this came floods of tributes, shoes, latex, cash etc…she must’ve spent about £600 that weekend in ‘trying to impress’ Me…well this time I had learned…I’m going to make her squirm and play the guessing game for as long as I want!
I was going to make NO effort whatsoever in chatting to her, no giving her tasks NOTHING, NADA, ZILCH…she’d totally blown it…I was going to leave to her own devices and see how much she is willing to ‘impress’ Me and see how soon she’ll get bored of doing so.
Everyday the emails are still coming saying how much she adores Me etc, she’s still doing self imposed tasks, she’s still buying Me gifts and yesterday we even had a r/t shopping trip.
Our shopping trip was as fun as ever…firstly W/we started of in Selfridges having cake and juice then I took her up to the Shoe Gallery…every shoe fetishists dream come true! It’s so amazing up there, it always makes Me giddy as there are way too many shoes to look at…so I usually need a ‘plan of action’!
By the end of O/our shopping trip fuckwit (aka kitty, aka princess fifi, aka whatever the fuck I want to call her) had bought Me some new make up, new jeans and 2 pairs of new shoes! W/we also bought her some cheap trashy make up which was fun and edging on public humiliation for her (however that doesn’t beat the time I had her begging on Oxford Street for her chastity device key which she had sent Me to look after weeks prior to a past shopping trip…the poor thing was nearly in tears as I was dangling it and not giving it to her!!!) I had to stop shopping as My feet were starting to kill Me!…but some how I don’t feel like I’ve finished draining her just yet…I want MOAR!!!!
At the end of O/our trip I felt like it was like ‘old times’ again…like the kitty I once knew and trusted to do anything…and to be honest kitty was always My favourite slave (she never liked being called a slave…but she is to Me), besides all of her yo-yoing back and forth kitty is really a good girl…so I *think * I’m going to give her one last chance…
When she returned home last night, she sent Me this email:
Dear Goddess Penelope,
i wanted to thank You again for the shopping trip today. i am so lucky to be drained by You in person! Hopefully i did a little bit more to show You how much i want to be owned by You. You said at lunch that i was referring to myself as slave, and i was without even noticing. i have changed it’s not enough to be a sub my place is to be Your slave. i’m so sorry i’ve been stupid in the past and tried to leave Your service. You got into my head a long time ago and took control so i should know that i would always have to crawl back feeling more ashamed every time. i am helpless to resist You and accept that completely.
Sorry to sound cheesy Goddess i know You hate that but i really mean it. It’s genuine emotion now which i don’t always understand or do the right thing because it’s so different from anything else i’ve ever known but i think i’ve got it now. i know my place is to make Your life better in any way i can. i adore You Goddess and will worship You until the day You tell me to stop. All i want to do until then is make You happy. Please let me be a cherished pet again like i was when i was kitty i swear i can be a good girl for You. No other Domme i’ve ever talked to has known me like You do so although i am scared sometimes when You fuck with me and push my limits i know that You know what’s going to really hurt me. So please i beg You to ignore all the times in the past when i’ve been a bitch and said no. There are so many things i’ve thought about recently where i’ve said no that i would beg to do right now just to show You how serious i am. i’m not trying to push You on making a decision on this, i know that You will make it when You make it. i just want You to know how real this has become for me and how much i need to be owned by You. Every single layer has been broken down and i am Your obedient property whenever You want me to be.
p.s. i LOVE my makeup, thank You!
(the silly tart was never good with feelings…I think she’s starting to get a bit sentimental on Me though )